The Grudge Of Vengeance

This, the final, fateful day of the 106th seminar is dawning. I am risking everything in this day of the seminar.[Is this not the fast that I have chosen to loose: the bonds of wickedness, to undo the heavy burdens, to let the oppressed go free, and that you break every yoke? Is it not to share your bread with the hungry, and that you bring to your house the poor who are cast out; when you see the naked, that you cover him, and not hide yourself from your own flesh? Then your light shall break forth like the morning your healing shall spring forth speedily and your righteousness shall go before you; the glory of the Lord shall be your rear guard. Then you shall call, and the Lord will answer; you shall cry, and He will say 'Here I am.'](Isaiah 58: 6-9).

The 'fast that I have chosen' which pleases God is not asking God to forgive my sins, to give blessings and salvation while abstaining from food but to loose the bonds of wickedness, undo the heavy burdens, let the oppressed go free, and break every yoke.' Who will loose the bonds of wickedness', then? Will this person go to the earthly prisons, break down the gates and loose the bonds' of those prisoners? Also, will he undo the heavy burdens and let the oppressed go free' by beating up and chasing out masters of slaves? And that you break every yoke?'

Awhile ago, I saw a man wearing a yoke and plowing his field. To loose the bond, does not refer to breaking this sort of toilsome yoke. Here, it refers to our real Daddy who is bonded by wickedness. For thousands and thousands of years, our real Daddy has been bonded so tightly by innumerable, wicked, false accusations and unjust charges that loosening them seems hopeless. The God of life and love was turned into the God of violence, the God of mercy was turned into the God of wickedness. We must arise to loosen all these bonds of wickedness.

[Undo the heavy burdens]. Our Daddy is so tormented by the heavy burdens placed on Him. In the Bible, it even says our Daddy was yoked with the burdens of oxen. We must undo all the tormenting burdens from Him. Our Daddy has been oppressed for thousands of years without having anyone He could express His grief to, so He has had to live in silence until now. Oppression! All of Satan's people, all of the universal hosts arose against Him, and although there were so many of His children, there was nobody He could express His heart to. We must free our Father who's been so severely oppressed.

[And that you break every yoke?] We must break all the thousands of various oxen yokes that have dragged our tormented and grieved Father around until now. No human being can do this. We don't know how many thousands of tens of thousands of years our Father has been bonded by wickedness, been bound by heavy burdens, been oppressed, and been yoked with all sorts of grief and torment. Because we are the only ones in the whole universe who know our Daddy's heart we must break all His yokes and free Him once and for all.

In verse seven, it says, "Is it not to share your bread with the hungry, and that you bring to your house the poor who are cast out; when you see the naked, that you cover him, and not hide yourself from your own flesh?" It is our Daddy who was hungry. The whole universe turned their heads from Him. He has been starving from a lack of love and compassion. His food is love. When everyone united together and departed from our real Father, He wandered as a beggar cast out with nowhere to go, nowhere to lay His head.

[And that you bring to your house the poor who are cast out.] We must invite Him into our house. Our Father who wandered for thousands, millions of years not having one child He could confess His grief to! Here it says, "when you see the naked, that you cover him." Satan with all his demons arose and stripped God of His garments of love and righteousness. He stripped Him of His clothes of love and righteousness calling God a devil, a tyrant, and a wicked deity. They not only stripped Jesus but also our Father. We must stand up for our Father; we must cover Him up by crying out, "Our Father is the God of love and mercy."

[And not hide yourself from your own flesh.] The only one in the universe who is our own flesh is our real Daddy. No one is our own flesh except our Father. Because we were so fooled by the demon Satan, we hid from our real Daddy, our own flesh as if we were hiding from the devil. However, I want you, ladies and gentlemen, not to hide yourselves from our real Daddy, but meet Him and invite Him into your houses. Only then will we loosen all our Daddy's bonds of wickedness, undo all of His heavy burdens, free our Daddy from all oppression, break the hundreds of thousands of yokes and free Him. Only then can we bring our Father, who has wandered in hunger for thousands of yeas, searching for someone who could understand His heart, into our houses, and invite our real Daddy, our flesh, into our hearts. [Then your light shall break forth like the morning, your healing shall spring forth speedily, and your righteousness shall go before you; the glory of the Lord shall be your rear guard.] Our Daddy will be so grateful and appreciative that He will follow us everywhere and guard us with His glory. He will be so deeply grateful. This is the first time He's been treated this way in over hundreds of thousands of years. So that's why He use us as channels of light in the world.

{Then your light shall break forth like the morning.] Is there light shining forth from Me? We are the children of light because we please our Father, so He follows us wherever we go and uses us to shine the light of life to the rest of the world. Wherever I go, wherever I am, He uses me as the sun to shine forth His light of life.

[Your healing shall spring forth speedily.] We don't need anyone to lay their hands on us for to be healed. Why? Our Daddy appreciates us so much that He always abides with us and heals us, readily. That's why.

[And your righteousness shall go before you; the glory of the Lord shall be your rear guard.] Ladies and gentlemen, do not try to cure someone with some sorts of drug or medicine. If we remove the false accusations from our Daddy, then that will cure not only us but the rest of this world, as well. And He will so appreciative that "your righteousness shall go before you; the glory of the Lord shall be your rear guard." He will be so grateful and so fond of those children that He'll follow them wherever they go.

Also, "Then you shall call, and the Lord will answer; you shall cry, and He will say, 'Here I am." He will be so fond of us that He'll appear to us promptly when we call. This is the fast that our Father is pleased to accept. Fasting is not just abstaining from shoving food in your face. True fasting is to treat our Daddy, who has starved and thirsted for so long, in the way I have mentioned. However, what do those worldly people say? They continuously cover our Father with false accusations, accusing Him of being a despot, a murderer, and a demon who likes to eat human flesh. Simultaneously, they ask Him for blessings, for salvation, for Him to wash them of their sins; they pray with hearts full of selfishness and greed. Do they believe that anyone is really listening to their prayers?

Ladies and gentlemen, today, I hope that you will choose the fast which truly pleases our Father who has died, starved and wandered for hundreds of thousands of years. This universe has suffered undeservedly. Our Father has become so pitiful that there is no way to remove these yokes of false accusations from Him. Because our Father is so kind, countless numbers of Satan's people rose up and turned Him into a powerless god by binding Him up in hundreds of thousands of strands layer after layer. Because He does not fight back, because they considered Him powerless, all the foolish universal beings sympathized and believed in these false accusations.

Our Father was so mistreated by His own children, but still, He did not try to defend Himself. That's why those wicked universal hosts said, 'Ah, that must be true. Since He does not say one word to defend Himself, they must be right.' When Jesus was being crucified as a wicked, dirty criminal, did He say anything to defend Himself? He did not say one word but kept His peace. The Son resembled the Father.

So, all the wicked men, including the disciples, said, 'Ah, that's right. Our Teacher must've done it. I thought He was holy but seeing that He doesn't say one word to defend Himself, He must've done as they say,' and they all fled from Him. They sympathized along with everyone else. Likewise, when Lucifer, cunning and matchless in wisdom raised up all the countless numbers of his people to attack and reproach God, to falsely accuse Him, all the universal hosts sympathized with them saying that they must be right and turned their heads from Him, pointing their fingers at Him, because He did not say one word in reply or in defense to all the unjust charges being made against Him.

Our Daddy was so mortified that He shut His lips even tighter, He became more silent, He was filled with regret in His heart, He suffered and was bitterly enraged. His own children, whom He had begotten, were treating Him this way. Although there are countless numbers of His children in the universe, more numerous in the stars than there are grains of sand in the sea, although they are all tall, handsome, and have outstanding wisdom, there was not one child He could tell His heart to, not one child who could understand His heart. Bonded with wickedness, covered with thousands of layers of hideous, false accusations, taunted as a demon, a tyrant who alone keeps the throne as a stubborn, ruthless, despotic god, our Father endured overwhelming torment, more painful than sitting on a pin-cushion was that throne, so He just wandered like a beggar who was cast out. The oldest Son came to remove the disgrace from our Father, but He too ended up receiving the same treatment. Although foxes have holes and birds of the air have nests, the Son of Man had nowhere to lay His head. He was covered also with hideous false accusations and bound with wickedness that He also wandered as a poor beggar until finally, like our Father, He was accused of all sorts of hideous crimes before being crucified without saying one word in His own defense.

For a minute, let us think about how our Father must've felt when He saw His Son, who tried to remove the disgrace from the Father, being killed by the same wicked men who were trying to kill Him. Likewise, the last Son couldn't endure it any longer so He also came to remove our Father's disgrace by trying to rescue, awake, save and give eternal life to all mankind, who had been deceived and were dying, but what happened to Him?

The Son of God who came as the messenger of life, the fragrance of life, the Savior who would save the whole world; this king of life, was turned into the fragrance of death by Satan. All the demons converged on the sons of God whenever they appeared and turned their fragrances of life into fragrances of death, messengers of blessings into messengers of condemnation, emissaries of eternal life into emissaries of death, princes of life into princes of death. That's why when one person is barely led to the Elijah Missions Institute through extreme hardships and privations, that one person's family, church, and country all rise up in an uproar, cursing and condemning the Institute for having seduced their family and their countryman. So, the Son who came to save this world ends up being the destroyer and murderer of this world. Instead of being the king of life, He becomes the king of death. Instead of being th Savior, He becomes the devil.

Our Father, Jesus 2000 years ago, and the last Son! They were killed one after another as they appeared. That's why when one person is saved, 1000 people, 10,000 people, all his countrymen, his whole nation is destroyed. If those sons had not appeared, then so many people would not have died so miserably, but because they were sent, such a tremendous number of people were killed. So imagine how regrettable the Father and Sons must have been. If He had not sent His Sons, they, along with all the millions and billions of people on this earth, would not have died so frighteningly and so miserably, but the distressed Sons who came down to this earth were turned into envoys of death.

What's more infuriating is that although the original sinners were the universal hosts, the ones who paid the wages of sin through death were God's youngest, most innocent children who used to run and play in their paradise home of Eden. It was the universal hosts who committed all the sins. Ladies and gentlemen, why must we die from sickness and diseases? Those who committed all the sins should die from diseases. It's become completely topsy-turvy. We've suffered most undeservedly. They were the ones who committed all the sins.

Ladies and gentlemen, did we have wicked hearts in the Garden of Eden? We were like young lambs: beautiful, innocent, without stain, blemish or an evil heart. Adam and Eve were a couple who didn't have the slightest bit of hatred for each other. However, the evil ones from heaven, the universal hosts, came to this earth as devils and started to drag around the innocent pair to kill, murder, steal, slaughter, and force countries to destroy one another. We never dreamed this could happen. Then, they say that we committed sins and therefore, must be judged and killed once again.

There is something more unfair than this. We are not just a few billion but a few hundred billion. Let's just say there were a few billion people every generation for 6000 years. No matter how many thousands of people our brethren of past generations may have killed, whether they murdered, or slaughtered others, I am pleading to our Father that they are thousands of times more righteous than those hypocritical, two-faced, heavenly beings. Did we murder because we wanted to murder? Those heavenly demons dragged us around all our lives, we who were so young and naive, ordering us to kill this person, steal this.' We didn't know how to do these things, but we just obeyed and did them. Later on, we realized that we had sinned.

I am praying to my Father as follows: Father, although those heavenly beings profess that they didn't follow Satan and thus, they aren't corrupt, they are no different from those who did follow Satan. Although they profess to be gods who have outstanding wisdom, although there are so many of Your children in the universe, You did not reveal Your deep tormenting heart to even one of them, but suffered in tears and silence until now. Also, they say that heaven is a paradise where only holy beings live, where only angels abide, and that we are filthy sinners, that the wicked Adam killed us. Nonsense! Adam is a victim. He is completely sinless. Because Adam is so pitiful. You, Daddy, saved him. If Adam is a source of sin like Lucifer, You would never have saved him.'

That's how Adam was saved. That's why the last Jesus will embrace Adam, who didn't know what was what, shed tears of blood for a thousand years and died after those heavenly beings came down and deceived him into committing sin just once. The one victimized the most was Adam. He had no idea that he would become the main root from which countless numbers of God's children would be killed. what's so tremendously terrible about his wife bringing him a piece of fruit? He only took an apple and ate it. Didn't God pair them together so they could love each other? He told them to love each other for life or death, so what's the great sin in this? Not Knowing what's what, Adam shed tears of blood in torment for a thousand years and died after sinning just once.

The most pitiful person is Adam. The most sadly victimized person is Adam. There has been no one as wretched as he. For tens and hundreds of generations, his children cursed him saying, 'It's because of you that we are so miserable,' and cursed him saying,'we'd be better off if you were dead, you old fool!' Those demonic satans, these oldest children of God begotten from His own body, killed our Father, killed His Sons whenever they appeared, and are harboring enmity against His youngest children. I've been dragged by Satan to all kinds of places.

Once, I went to jail. When I went into My cell, Handcuffed, there was a 38 years old man who had beaten his elderly mother with his fists so brutally that she run away fearing that she would be beaten to death by him. As she was running away barely alive, he would catch her and beat her up some more saying, 'Where do you think you're going?' Upon finding out about what was happening, the neighbors reported him to the police saying, What a wicked son he is,' and he was thrown into the jail. Since he was 38 years old, he also had children of his own. Also there was a 40 years old man, who had children attending college. He had killed his mother mercilessly with a straw-cutter. However, instead of repenting for what he'd done, he was regretting the fact that he had not killed his father as well. I was absolutely shocked. The elderly father was pleading with the judge to kill his son just as his son had killed his wife.

Ladies and gentlemen, I thought that these incidents only occurred on this earth but it first happened in heaven. Lucifer and all those countless numbers of His children, whom God personally begot, those children who were so handsome and so big, rose up and assaulted our Father with stones of reproach, criticism, and condemnation.

In 1888 in Minneapolis, when the Mediator, God's Son, showed the Seventh-Day Adventist Church what true righteousness by faith was through certain human channels, the leaders of the SDA church, the heads of the church organization said, 'Light will come to me when it comes, how could it be shown to such a shabby person as you? You say you're a prophet? You are a heretic.' If they had received heaven's great truth at time, all of mankind could have been saved. But, because they were stoned with reproach and criticism, those prophets died very young. When the prophetess, Ellen G. White, attended their funeral, she she said, 'These beloved brethren were stoned to death with rocks of reproach and criticism thrown by the leaders of the SDA Church, just like the way Stephen was stoned to death.'

Ladies and gentlemen, our Father was assaulted with rocks of reproach, criticism and condemnation, and eventually chased away by His own children whom He had personally begotten, Lucifer and all those other countless numbers of children God's Son came out to block their attacks and eventually, chased them out from heaven. So, after failing to kill the Father, they came down, beat, and killed their own creator, the Creator God Jesus. They beat Him and then crucified Him. I thought I could see this only in earthly jails, but the two Creator Gods were killed in the same way. Instead of repenting for his misdeeds, Satan is resentful that he could not kill our Father in heaven. Due to his rage, he is killing the youngest children of God. Is this not the truth? It is no use even if we tell this to those in the world. There is nobody in the universe who can proclaim this message of our Father's heart,of His undeserved suffering. They have all combined together with Satan in one lump. Ladies and gentlemen, you probably never imagined that this universe has become so wretched, did you?

Before, when you were following that crazed Jesus, you probably thought that only holy angels existed in the universe, that we along with the wicked Adam were the only sinners, didn't you? The real sinners abide throughout the universe; the real hell is the universe. So I am not even taking into consideration that old demon when I ask for the authority of judgment. Those wicked beings will disappear like animals even if they are just left alone. I am asking for the authority of judgment to completely eradicate sin from this universe. Because there is still a possibility that second or third satans will arise from amidst those heavenly hosts, I want to make sure that this never happen by destroying all those demons of Satan so that the heavenly beings will see this and tremble like aspen leaves. Thus, they will not even think of becoming a second or third Satan. Although they did not follow him, they sympathized with what he said; in essence, they are the same along with Satan and his demons.

Everything I do is on a universal scale. So, the last Son came to deliver the fragrance of life, but these demons enshrouded the Son in a thick cloud and started to spread the fragrance of death. Also, He came as the messenger of blessings, but was turned into the messenger of condemnation. He arose as the giver of eternal life but was turned into the giver of death; thus everyone fled from. Nobody came to Him for fear that they would die a miserable death. That's why in Russia and China, Satan is trying to slaughter all 1.3 billion of God's children by spreading wicked rumors through Protestant pastors that we eat little children here. They turned the king of life into the king of death, God's Son the Savior into Satan the devil, so that if one person comes to the Elijah Gospel Missionary Institute and is saved, that person's family, church, and country all rise up saying, My husband, family, and countryman was seduced and killed.' That's why they won't even issue visas for our brethren. This is the present state we are in.

If the Sons had not become enraged and had not jumped down to this earth, if God had not sent them to this earth, then we would not have awakened that sleeping devil, made him angry, and made him kill all of God's children on this earth so miserably. Heaven has been completely defeated in every battle; every plan has ended in failure. However, this demon is enraged because he could not kill our Father! That ignorant and uncouth demon, that demon who mercilessly beat and dragged the Creator God to the cross to crucify Him, that demon who stabbed our God with a spear and killed Him, he is the one who slaughtered his own Mother. I thought that those fearful, demonic children existed only in prisons on this earth, but they already existed in heaven.

So, by the hand of God's Son, the only thing left to do is to destroy those murderers, those devils who ruined this universe and seduced all of God's children to their death. Only when they are destroyed will all six billion of God's children open their eyes to see and open their ears to hear which side worships the true God and which side worships the devil, which side the true Jesus is on and which side the demon, who seduced all heaven and earth, is on. Once they know, they will have a chance to be saved. Although all six billion people may be saved, this will not relieve our Father's grief nor will it soothe the grief in My heart. Even though all six billion of God's children may be saved, this is still heaven's complete defeat. Where's the victory in saving six billion people when hundreds of billions of God's children were so miserably killed?

Still, Satan wants to chew up whatever remains of God's children, and as it says in Amos3:12, the only things remaining of God's children are "two legs or a piece of an ear." Satan has claimed complete victory. Now, all of you can imagine why My heart is so impatient, so angered, and how mortified I am as this fire of rage burns within me. So I sang these lamentations as I walked the paths of Songni Mts. and along the seashores of America.

Song of Lament

I. Must I sing choking songs of grief,
Must I swallow tears of blood and wait,
The Prince's lifelong tears and regrets,
All mankind is pitiable so I call Daddy,
Even today.


The Endless Road

1. The endless, wearisome road of a warrior,
The warrior is getting old, but still,
No command is given,
The aged warrior sighs deeply,
Oh, when will the day come,
For the aged warrior,
To take revenge?
Oh, when will he get a chance to fight,
And end this war,
The endless, wearisome road of the warrior,
The day of the vengeful grudge.

2. The pitiful, old warrior,
Although you waited for so long,
The command to fight is still not given,
The old warrior sighs deeply because
He sees th enemy but cannot attack,
Oh, when will the order to
Charge into battle,
The order to attack, be given,
Oh, when will revenge be taken
And end this war of vengeance,
Pleading is useless,
The answer's always 'Wait',
The warrior's hair grows gray.

I cannot wait any longer. I arose this morning staking my whole life on this final day.


'As Time Passes By'

1. As time passes by, on the long,
Fog covered road of memory,
Sadness and joy have all gone far away,
But in the state of this empty heart,
Ah, ah, a longing for Daddy,
Again today choked with tears is,
The longing Prince of vengeance.


Futile Empty Wait'

1. While snow that fell from the heavens,
A day last winter leaving behind
Desperate heart of yearning
With that Daddy left,
Once again the lonely winter comes,
And the white snowflakes flutter down,
There's no word from Daddy that
He'll come back soon,
An empty futile wait, an empty futile wait,
An empty futile wait.


'The Countless Days'

1. For countless days, I pleaded
But still no answer,
So everyone, even the enemies, ridicule Me,
I cannot do according to
My own mind will,
But have to live according to heaven's
Providence and Daddy's will,
The frustrated royal crown Prince,
Ah, ah, the frustrated royal crown prince.


Because there was no answer to my pleas of countless days, I was mocked and ridiculed by all, even by the enemies. But I do nothing of My own will and My own plan. I am a Son who follows heaven's plan... however frustrating it may be.


'Heartless Heaven'

1. What's the use of pleading,
What's the use of lamenting,
Heaven is so insensitive,
There's no way to communicate,
Just let it be,
Forget heaven, earth, all things,
And just drink some old liquor.

2. What's the use of wailing,
What's the use of imploring,
Real Daddy is heartless,
There's no way to communicate,
Hallelujah, hallelujah, hallelujah,
Just let it be,
Forget all things in this world,
And just drink some old liquor.


'On Account of Loving My Daddy All Too Much'

1. On account of loving My
Daddy all too much,
For His glory while I was
Taking off disrepute,
A great multitude of the
Demons of the enemy,
Coming from every direction,
Overwhelmingly they attack,
Oh, God My real Daddy,
Please give me Your strength,
Give me Your scepter.

2. On account of loving My
Brethren all too much,
While saving My brethren
Who were being destroyed,
I jumped in all alone single-handedly,
Please give the weapon to
Michael the Great Prince,
The criminals of heaven,
Blood-sucking murderers,
Ah, they must be destroyed,
Completely destroyed.

3. Having killed the enemies
Of six thousand years,
Are all filled with cheers,
My Daddy, real Daddy has received glory,
My Lord Jesus has received glory,
All the destroyed enemies,
All the murderers,
They are wiped away forever,
They are ashes forever.


'The Pitiful Crown Prince'

1. This night the snow drives on so hard,
And all the mountains creatures cry,
The young crown Prince,
Searching for You,
Wanders through all the mountains,
Though He calls with a pained throat,
On very mountains valley,
With no answer He cries alone,
Poor, pitiful crown Prince.

2. Please don't try to dissuade Me,
Please don't try to hold onto Me,
All of mankind is now dying,
What is there sparing My life,
Oh, God of heaven, My real Daddy,
Please now save all My brethren,
The murderer has swallowed
All Your pitiful children.

3. My real Daddy, do not go on like this,
Father, now please go to sleep,
The blood-sucking devil Satan has
Swallowed all earth's six billion people,
Oh God of heaven, My real Daddy,
Please now just go to sleep,
Though You may arise, there's no use,
All Your pitiful children have died.

4. Oh My precious beloved Son,
Why do You speak these kinds of things,
Your real Daddy, Omnipotent,
Can give life even to the dead,
Oh My precious beloved Son,
Do not worry for anything,
Now, I'll give life completely,
To those in this universe.


As I sang these songs for the past six years, I went up and down the Songni Mts. of Korea countless numbers of times wearing out the mountains paths and fallen leaves into the ground. Along the seashores of Australia and the seashores of America, I walked with this body which refuses to die with all My pitiful, dying brethren in this world, regretting over this body which has become My enemy as I said, "Father, I dislike heaven and earth. I dislike You and I dislike Satan. detest everything and refuse to see anything anymore. Please give Me death. I don't want to see Your pitiful appearance, Satan's evil appearance, the heavenly hosts' wicked appearance, and this world's demons and evil men. I just want to disappear by Myself. Please take this body. Please take the breath from Me." I pleaded like this countless times. But why is My life so tenacious?

This time, My brethren are asking Me to go to China and Russia. They say that our brethren there really want to see Me. They lament saying that I visit everywhere else except China and Russia. Our brethren in China and Russia have neither come here nor they seen Me, even once. Our Australian and American brethren have see Me twice and four times, respectively. But because I haven't visited once, our brethren in China and Russia are crying to see Me, so who's to say that this might not be Daddy's plan for Me?

This message of life should light up the whole world and shake the whole universe but instead, it has only been squeaked in this tiny mouse hole of Kangwon Province in this country the size of a rabbit's tail for over 13 years. That's why I entreated heaven in this way:

"Daddy, You dragged Your Son all His life in and out of this mouse hole and turned Him into the universal rascal, so how is it that the Creator Gods, the Father and the Son, have to tremble so fearfully in front of their own created children asking Themselves, 'Are they going to try to kill Us again, will they try to attack Us again?' Why They run from Their own children in fear?" Why must parents tremble in front of their own children? If this tremendous life-giving truth is just proclaimed and given, The whole world would live, but why must we always be chased around, be beaten, be bound and put into prison, why must we stay like mice squeaking in this tiny little mountainside mouse hole of Kangwon Province without being able to proclaim this tremendous truth? This is what little mice do, not what God's sons do, not even what animals do. We cannot even act as dignified as even normal animals but only like mice. These are not God's sons but baby mice.

I asked, "Daddy, do You want to drag Me to that filthy land of darkness, China, that cold country of Russia, so that like a diseased adult mouse about to die, I will become sick and crawl around looking for some barley which fell on the ground or some rice which was dropped? Daddy, if You will not give Me the authority of judgment during this seminar to judge all of heaven and earth and will not lift Me up to avenge Your enemy, then I would rather You drag Me to China and throw Me into the Yantze River there so I can become food for the fish, or throw Me into the deep lake at the peak of Mt. Baektu so I will never float up to the top but will die, or bury Me underneath the frozen snow or the frozen ice in Siberia. Please, I beg You to choose one of these for my fate. When I was coming back from America the last time I asked You to let the plane crash into the ocean but You didn't, so this time, please let one of these things happen. I don't care anymore for heaven, for this earth, for Satan, or even Your pitiful sight, Father, I just want to die."

I prayed like this last night. This is My earnest wish that if this work will continue in this shameful way, this will be My only desire whether it be a thousand years, ten thousand years, or a million years. On this last day of the 106th holy seminar, I am staking my life and my eternal fate as I just stare up at the sky and wait for His reply. So now, I only plead with God to give Me death.

I always said this to you all. Among all people who were born on this earth, there is probably nobody who has pleaded for death as much as I have, just as a thirsting soul looks for water and just as a thirsting deer looks for a stream. Ladies and gentlemen, do you all think that I am just babbling nonsense right now? Before I loved My Daddy. Now, I don't even want to look at His wretched appearance anymore. I don't want to see anything at all. What was My fate that I had to be born and sandwiched in between heaven and earth to bear the burdens of the whole universe, stumbling, tormenting, spilling My blood, clutching My intestines, enduring torture, screaming and shouting on the ground in agony because this neck, which is as thin as a piece of sting, will not break? I have lamented countless times. And I did not reveal to you these songs that only I knew and sang for over 10 years. On this final day of the 106th seminar, I am revealing them to you all for the very first time.